Weighed Down

Do you ever have those days or weeks where everything just weighs on you, whether those things should or shouldn't?  That's been my week.  It's not over yet, but I've been rather melancholy this week.  I attribute a lot of it to my back hurting since Tuesday, although progressively less each day, which is good.

For the last week (starting last Thursday while sitting in the rain on the seawall in Vancouver watching seaplanes land and take off in the harbor), I've been doing a lot of thinking about myself and what I want.  I've come to the conclusion that I'm ready for whatever is next.  I don't dislike work, but I don't love it anymore.  I'm also not in love with LA, but I also don't know that it's time to leave it.  If what I want to do is write and/or produce, then I need to start that path, and figure out how to do it financially.  I'm tired of doing things for money, rather than for pleasure.

Tomorrow is Friday, which brings its usual donut/bagel day at work and payday, but this particular Friday adds a trip to Vegas for the annual Frozen Fury hockey game.  I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also worried that my head is going to be lost in thought for much of it, although perhaps it will be a welcome distraction.  Plus a friend of mine from my high school years that I haven't seen in a couple of years is also in Vegas this weekend, so we're going to meet up and discuss a potential project, which is always good.

We have some casting people at work who are searching for talent for some projects we're working on.  While I was changing out the toner cartridge in their printer today, we started talking about televisions hows we were watching and into, and halfway through the casting director asked me if I had ever wanted to be an actor.  He stated that he could see me as a character actor.  As a child I had dreams of acting, but I knew it wasn't something I should pursue, and I still know this.  But what led him to that assumption?  What is it about me that says "character actor"?  I was reminded of the time my acting for non-actors teacher in college told me he saw me as a writer.  What did he see then?  Would he say the same thing now?

Speaking of seeing things in me, one of the people I hung out with in Vancouver remarked about how beautiful my eyes are.  Not to be vain, but I've sort of noticed this about myself as well.  I love my eyes, but I don't know why.  Sometimes I stand in front of a mirror and sort of stare into my eyes.  I think I'm looking for myself in them.  There's depth in my eyes; I can see it.  There's also something trapped in them, I think.  Am I locking myself away somewhow?  Preventing myself from being that which is me?

Today's song is "My Shadow", by Keane, because it's time for me to make a start to get to know my heart.  Time for me to show my face, and take my place.  I'm not leaving by the road I came in on.

Thunderbolt and Lightning!

Something random happened in LA today.  Well, at least in the San Fernando Valley.  We had a rainbow, lightning, and thunder!  There are even some accounts of a double rainbow all the way!  But what does it mean?  It is a sign of the end, or of "the big one", or any such similar major event in our world?  Who can say? Certainly not I!

Song of the day has to go to Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody".

Thank you, that is all.

Back to the Grind

Today was a pretty crappy day.  It wasn't horrible, nor was anything really out of the ordinary, except for my back deciding to remind me of its presence all day long.  I don't remember doing anything to it, but I woke up in quite a bit of pain that was amplified with any movement.  However, trooper that I am, I faced the day.  When I had difficulty standing still and with walking, I thought about calling into work sick.  Then I realized that most days I just sit in my chair and wait for the phone to ring so that I can assist them, and figured I'd probably be able to handle that.

Walking like Quasimodo, I made it to work at a slower pace than usual.  I settled in and things felt pretty good in my chair.  Then the phone calls started, and things kept needing to be done on the 2nd floor of the building.  Rarely do I have anything to do up there, but today it was all up there.  I thought maybe the universe was telling me something, that maybe it's time to move on from all of this.

Then I find out that another friend on the other side of the country is randomly dealing with back pain today, and that other people are having generally bad days.  It reminds me that while many people have a case of the Mondays, I've recently had more cases of the Tuesdays and Thursdays.  For whatever reasons, those days are worse than Mondays, Wednesdays, or Fridays.  We're leaving weekends out of this.  So in the end, I'm chalking it up to just another Tuesday.  Unless it continues into tomorrow, in which case we're going to have some issues...

"After the Storm" is the last track on Mumford & Sons' album "Sigh No More".  It's also the closing song of tonight's season premiere episode of Stargate Universe, of which I'm a big fan.  It's a great way to end the album, and a great way to end this episode.  I've managed to persuade several of my friends into watching (and liking!) Stargate Universe, but there's a few holdouts I'm still working on.  I wish the music alone would convince them, as we've now had Flogging Molly and Mumford & Sons used as soundtracks, and these holdouts like these artists.  Time will tell I guess...

Is It Safe to Land?

Back to the grind today.  It's amazing how short vacations can just relax us and give us a fresh start.

That said, it was a bit of rough Monday.  I picked up a slight cold in Vancouver, so I spent the morning fighting that a little.  The first cup of coffee tasted pretty bad, but the second was a lot better.  It was also extremely hot today, which felt even more amplified from being in cool, wet weather all weekend.

While I was in Vancouver, we had a couple of shoots in the office.  One shoot had no problems, and the other had problems with the mic.  So I looked at it today when they brought the equipment back, and everything was working fine for me.  I did notice that the camera mount was on the mic transceiver instead of the receiver.  Somehow I missed that in my pre-checkout inspection.  Ugh.  I know that I told them on the phone when they called me to check which beltpack they were using, but I guess that got lost in the shuffle somehow.  I take responsibility for it, though, as I really should have caught that, and should have pointed out the mic workings to them when I gave them the camera.  Live and learn, eh?

The more I contemplate my house boat in Coal Harbor, the more I want it, and the sooner I want it to happen.  But, I can't rush things.  Everything has a time, and when it's meant to be, I'll know.  I have to work on writing first.  Not a lot of writing jobs up in Vancouver.  I'm comforted in knowing that I know where I want to go next, whenever that is.

I really like the band Travis.  I didn't even realize until a few months ago that they come from Scotland.  From them comes "Follow the Light", although it's a few years old.  But that's the beauty of music.  Unless it's pop and overplayed on the radio, it doesn't exactly go bad.  Even with the overplayed stuff, after a while it's good to listen to again.

I want to dance in the moonlight until I fall.  But not in this heat.

Home Sweet Non-Home

I'm back in my apartment in Burbank.  The flight back was uneventful, although it was 35 minutes early, which is a bit unusual for a 3 hour flight.  Apparently the captain lives in LA and keeps trying to beat his own record.  I'm not complaining.  Luggage took a while, as did the shuttle to the distant parking lot.  When we got there, we discovered my friend had left her lights on, and the car battery was dead.  So we waited a bit for AAA to get there, get jumpstarted, and head for home.

I call this home, but I know better.  This isn't home, this is just where I live.  I'm not unhappy here, but I'm ready to live in Vancouver.  I think I have some time before that happens, as I need to do some career things first, and pave the way for Vancouver.  Current dream though is to live on a houseboat in Coal Harbor (which is in Vancouver).  Ah, dreams.

Speaking of dreams, I had a couple of celebrity ones last night.  Not surprising, as I had a LOT to drink.  Did I mention I've discovered vodka/tonics?  They're good!  What I dislike is that my head seems to realize I'm dreaming at that crucial moment where something is going to happen in my dream, and I wake up.  Aggravating.

Today's song is Vertical Horizon's "Save Me From Myself".  I know that in many aspects of life, I am my own worst enemy, and coming down from the Smallville weekend high, full of heroes and saves, this song is a message to myself to be my own best friend rather than my own worst enemy.

I can do it.  I can do anything.

Smallville #200

I am incredibly blessed to have been able to attend Smallville's 200th episode party tonight (last night?).  I've been a fan from the beginning, although I lapsed a bit during the "freak of the week" period, and caught up via DVD after the fact.  But for the last 3 years I've been following the show with each aired episode.  I've met and befriended so many of the LA crew, and it's amazing.  Last night I had a brief conversation with one of the executive producers, which is incredible to me.  Probably more incredible than meeting the cast a couple of years ago at Comic-Con.

So I got incredibly drunk at the party, but it's okay, because so did everyone else.  I also might have a new celebrity crush, but I can't say who she is as this time.  Feel free to ask me about it though.  I just won't state it publicly.

We went to Granville Island today.  Lotta good stuff there, as always.  The hammock store and the locally grown raspberries were my highlights, though the juggler guy was pretty good too.

I got to walk back to my friend's apartment at 4:30am in the rain.  That's an awesome experience.  I love rain, and I love Vancouver.

Today's song is "Indigo", by Fielding.  One of these days I'll do a song that has a connection to the day, but that isn't today.  Honestly I'm impressed I'm able to put sentences together, what with the amount of alcohol I've consumed and that is still in my system...

With Sirens Wailing and Lights Flashing

Today has been full of Smallville.  I've been incredibly lucky, and am honored to have been able to be included with a group of people associated with Smallville and take a tour of their sets/studio here in Vancouver.  It's surreal all that I've seen today, including watching a small bit of filming on location.

Tonight I was able to join this same group in watching the season premiere live on the Space channel, and then spend the rest of the night drinking with these amazing people.  At one point David Blue (from Stargate Universe and Ugly Betty and other things) was hanging with some of the Smallville peeps in the bar, but I stupidly didn't say hi to him.  He even called me out on it on Twitter, ha.

Walking back to my friend's apartment where I'm staying, I hear the sirens and see the lights of a cop car, and then see a group of about three guys running.  I pass the alley from which they came, where another cop car is, and overhear "Three random guys just jumped me and started beating me up.", while a girl cried.  I should mention this alley was half a block away from where the guy was passed out on the corner the other night.  I know where in Vancouver I don't need to go late at night.  What treasures shall tomorrow bring?

I first heard today's song on Showtime's "The Big C".  "Don't Hold Me Back" by Alex Cornish comes off his album "Call Back".  I'm not sure how I feel about Alex or the album yet, but I do like this song.  It is slightly nasal though.  Still, it's today's song.

Where I Belong

Today I realized that I belong in Vancouver.  I feel so comfortable here, so at home, and at peace.  I walked around the city again, enjoying the sites, sights, and sounds.  I spent a lot of time along the water, listening to the gulls, watching the boats and ships move slowly across the water, and following the seaplanes as they landed and took off from the harbor.  I also came up with another script idea.

I had dinner at Delilah's with a friend tonight.  Dinner was good, talk was great.  It wasn't quite what had been described to me, as I guess in the past Delilah's offered a one-price 5 course meal, where you chose between several options for each course.  It was good food, however, even if I had to request the halibut left off the only non-meat, non-chicken entree dish.  The only fish I know I like is salmon, and while they had a salmon dish, it was wrapped in prosciutto, which wouldn't have worked for me.  I've never had halibut, the other fish dish, so I don't know if I like it or not, but tonight was not the time to try it.  The pesto penne with tomato and olive salsa was delicious though.  So was the blackberry martini.  Delilah's will be featured in "Delilah's Conviction", a reality show airing on CityTV in Canada and Discovery in the US this fall.

Tomorrow, Vancouver Film Studios!  I hope I geek out silently and only to myself...

Today's song is "You Got Growing Up to Do".  It comes from Joshua Radin's album "Simple Times" and is sung by Joshua and Patty Griffin.  Check it if you don't know it.

Vancouver, Revisited

A year ago, if you had told me I'd be going to Vancouver in 2010, I would have easily believed you.  If, at that same time, you told me I'd be going to Vancouver TWICE in 2010, I would have laughed at you, and thought of it as wishful thinking.  It wasn't until July that talk about Vancouver in September was brought up, but when there was even the possibility of it, I was in.

See, in April, I came up because a couple of friends were participating in a curling event, and it was a great excuse to visit my friend who lives here, and finally see this great city in the north that I'd heard so much about.  I loved my time here, and told myself that I'd come back the next chance I got.

Little did I know how soon that chance would be.  My aforementioned friends both work in the entertainment industry, and both shows they work on are filmed here in Vancouver.  One of the shows is hitting it's 200th episode, and as such is throwing a party that my friends were going to.  I saw an opportunity to come back to the city, and I took it.  I'm now attending this party, which is an added and awesome bonus to the trip, as is set visits!  I'm rather excited.

I don't care about Hollywood in LA.  In Vancouver, however, I get giddy.  A lot of sci-fi is filmed here, and I love sci-fi.  So yes, I geek out a bit, and I'm okay with that.

The area near my friend's apartment is very, very different late at night than it is during the day.  Walking from the SkyTrain station, suitcase in tow, I passed a guy on a corner on his back, looking to be passed out.  People were around him and debating what to do.  I kept walking, thinking I should come back for a slice of pizza, as he was on the ground in front of a pizza joint.  So, I greeted my friend, dropped off to bed, and went and got a slice of pizza.  The guy was gone, but I'm pretty sure he was the rather belligerently drunk man I passed who wanted to start something with me for no reason other than he was drunk.

Lastly, one of the Smallville cast was on my plane.  I saw Justin Hartley and a woman (who I presumed to be his wife) at the incredibly short LAX security line (walk up, have ID/boarding pass verified, walk to scanner type of short...), and then got a closer look when I passed them a few minutes later and overheard him say the same gate number as mine.  My last trip to Vancouver I was on a plane with a guest star on the show, and then when I went to Scotland I was in the terminal with the showrunner.  That leaves my May trip to Vegas as the only trip in the last four that didn't have someone from Smallville associated with it.  Strange.

The song challenge is over, but I think I'm still going to have a song of the day.  Some days it will just be me stating the song, and others I'll feature it a bit more prominently.  Today's song is "Burning in the Skies" by Linkin Park.  Off their latest album, "A Thousand Suns", it was the song playing on my new iPod nano when I had to turn it off for landing at YVR (Vancouver airport).

NanoNano.

Song Challenge Day 30: My Favorite Song At This Time Last Year

This is it.  This is the last day of the song challenge.  Guess what!  It's another favorite, and you know how much I love those!

My favorite song this time last year...  Hmmm.  The only song I have from this time last year that is still rated at 5 stars in iTunes is a song from hit British TV show, Skins.  "This Is My City" comes to us from Timothy Victor, and replaced Adele's "Hometown Glory" on the DVD version of series/season 2 episode 9, "Cassie".  I really like this song, and I listened to it a lot after hearing it in the episode.  Curious about it?  See the YouTube version, and then also Timothy Victor's MySpace Profile.

What do you think?  Worthy of favorite status?  Not that it matters, of course...

Song Challenge Day 29: A Song From My Childhood

When I was in 3rd grade, my teacher went on maternity leave.  In her place came Mrs. Bream, a young woman, who was married to the brother of then-Atlanta Braves player Sid Bream.  I liked Mrs. Bream, and when we found out she also taught piano, she became my piano teacher as well.  Now you would think that in a couple of years I would have learned something, but then I never was much for practicing, so I think there was just a lot of repetition going on.

Mrs. Bream also taught voice lessons, and we worked that in with the piano.  When I was in 2nd grade, I had pneumonia, with severe dehydration and (we think) a bit of meningitis (I could also be wrong about this, as I was 8, but it was something that was not good).  This all happened right around my 8th birthday, which wasn't a pleasant time.  I recovered, mostly, but with one negative result.  The muscle(s) that move the pharyngeal flap were weakened, resulting in more air flow when I spoke, and being very hard to understand and very, very nasal.  I guess I got teased about it a lot, but I don't really remember.

So, back to the song.  Mrs. Bream taught me voice, and encouraged me to sing.  I really enjoyed Lee Greenwood's "God Bless the U.S.A.", and became so confident in myself that when I was ten, I sang for our church's talent show.  I didn't win, but I didn't care.  I don't think I even knew of my issue at the time, to be honest.  I knew I was in speech therapy because I had issues with "R"s, but I think that was all tied together.

Eventually I had corrective surgery, and I remember waking up thinking my tongue was gone and freaking out a bit.  Oh wait, that was because they also clipped my tongue's frenulum when they did the surgery.  Two birds with one stone and all...

So yeah, long story short, the song from my childhood is once again, "God Bless the U.S.A.".  And while I'd love living in Vancouver, I am proud to be an American.

Song Challenge Day 28: A Song That Makes Me Feel Guilty

A few years ago I did something I'm not proud of.  In an effort to achieve a personal gain, I led on a friend in an effort to pursue a crush.  Nothing became of the crush, but I lost the opportunity to take my friendship with said friend to a higher level, which I also kind of wanted to do.  I was stupid and couldn't see what was right in front of me, and in the end I lost out on both fronts.

Shortly after this occurred, Hoobastank released "The Reason", and at the time, it correlated to what had transpired.  Losing my friend over a crush made me realize how dumb such actions are, and how while that was the first time I'd ever done something like that, it wasn't the first time I'd THOUGHT about doing something like that.  So I resolved that I'd never do that again.  If I needed a friend to introduce me to one of their friends, I'd tell them that.

I've made up with my friend, though we've gone our separate ways in life, but I still think about what I did every time I hear that song.  I feel sad and guilty for my actions, even if they've been forgiven.

Song Challenge Day 27: A Song That I Wish I Could Play

One of my top bands right now is Muse, mainly because I love the music to their songs.  They have a way with their notes, instruments, tones, etc that's just brilliant.  Their recent album, "The Resistance" has a song that I very much wish I could play.  "Exogenesis: Symphony, Part 3" is, to me, fantastic.  I love the piano in it, as well as the strings included.  I think I'd really only want to learn the piano part, and who knows, maybe someday I will!

I also love the few lyrics of the song, which start with "Let's start over again", which is a concept I think about way too much.

Yes, it's true, I'm a big fan of starting over...

Song Challenge Day 26: A Song That I Can Play on an Instrument

I've not gotten far in any sort of musical "career".  I played the piano a bit back in elementary school, but I never did figure out reading for the left hand.  I tried guitar, and could do some chords, but never got past Christian camp songs, and even those were iffy.  I'm sure I could play "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" though.  I think I could also play the old Christian youth song "Pass It On".

I really need to get cracking learning guitar again.  A friend of mine gave me one, but I leave it in the bag and don't take it out much.  That needs to be remedied!

Song Challenge Day 25: A Song That Makes Me Laugh

Love it or hate it, you have to admit that YouTube has produced a lot of talent.  It's also produced a lot of non-talent.  I personally think Bo Burnham has talent.  He did get a album released after all.  I have to admit that many of his songs can be a bit, well, offensive if you don't have an open mind.  I like a few of his songs, but for the purpose of this blog, I'm going to go with "A Love Ballad", which is a love story, sort of...

I'll link this one!  After all, he did get his start from YouTube, so it's appropriate that I share the YouTube link, right?  I must say that the album version is better though, because it's live and includes audience laughter.

Here you go...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6B4Lrl9pdAA

Song Challenge Day 24: A Song That I Want to Play at My Funeral

Well, I don't know about you, but I have no interest in playing songs at my funeral.  I'll let someone else do that, thank you very much!  But, to whomever DOES play the songs at my funeral (which I hope is a long, long, LONG time from now), try and add Collective Soul's "Hymn For My Father" to the playlist, will ya?

I'd be so ever grateful to whoever fulfills this, but I won't know if it gets done or not, so I won't really be able to thank you.  Also, I'd be dead, so that would also make thinking you at the time to be, well, difficult.  Guess you'll just have to trust me in my gratitude!

Song Challenge Day 23: A Song That I Want to Play at My Wedding

Ah, my wedding day.  Something I've though about since I was a little gir, err, right.  I don't think about my wedding.  Sorry.  Now, if we're talking reception, we're talking party, and I'm all about that.  But, really, I'm a romantic, so yes, there are songs I'd say "well that's nice and sweet".

Across the pond there was a British pop-rock band, named Busted.  Well, they busted up, and from the crumbles rose McFly.  That's righty, like Marty.  Well, McFly has a sweet little diddy that's not about Jack or Diane, but is "All About You".  It's a great love song, and often repeats those important words, "it's all about you".

Except, it's not about you, because this blog is about ME!  Ha.  But without you, dear reader, it serves no purpose.  So I guess it really is all about you.

Song Challenge Day 22: A Song That I Listen To When I'm Sad

Life gets us all down sometimes.  When it gets me down, I throw open my iTunes, load my "Mellow Yellow" playlist, and chill out.  Many of the songs aren't necessarily "sad" songs, but are just more subdued in tempo and sound.  Most of them contain lyrics pertaining to light at the end of the tunnel, of hope for better days.

Also, when I'm not so happy, I prefer to be alone.  I don't enjoy moping in sorrow or anything, but I don't like being a downer around others.  I also like to think negative thoughts out.  If something is bothering me enough to get me down, I do contemplate it for a bit, and being around others prevents me from doing this.

So today's song comes from a band that had one album, and a band that few people liked (at least from my circle).  "Hideaway" comes off the Student Rick album "Soundtrack for a Generation".  Student Rick was a band from South Bend, Indiana that formed when I was living just across the border in Michigan.  They made one album, and then disbanded.  Interestingly, three of the four Student Rick band members are now in Los Angeles, and have a new band, Hello Vegas.  I've yet to go to one of their many shows here in town, but in all fairness, they've yet to release an album.  Also, I don't like their new stuff as much as I liked Student Rick.

Honorable mention to Joe Purdy's "Wash Away".

Song Challenge Day 21: A Song That I Listen To When I'm Happy

I think I've touched on Collective Soul already in this blog, and my taste for them.  So, it's no surprise to me that my song for today's challenge also comes from Collective Soul.  This song comes from the album "Afterwords", their seventh album.  "Never Here Alone" is an upbeat song about, well, never being alone, and about taking negative thoughts and shoving them aside and not letting them get us down.

Gotta love the happy times!

Runner up goes to "Folding Chair" by Regina Spektor, which is full of awesomely random lyrics and even seal-like sounds, although I think they're supposed to be dolphin sounds.  Classic.

Song Challenge Day 20: A Song That I Listen To When I'm Angry

We all get angry sometimes.  When I get angry, I do enjoy listening to music.  Now I definitely don't have a lot of angry music, but I have an album or two that fits the bill.  One such album, Aiden's "Knives", has a song that I enjoy in several moods, one of which is definitely when I'm angry.  "Scavengers of the Damned" is a great angry song, at least for me.  It's chorus goes something like this:

"Oh it's up to me

to make you f**king bleed

We are the scavengers

scavengers of the damned"

Angry times call for angry songs!

Song Challenge Day 19: A Song From My Favorite Album

As stated before, I don't have ultimate favorites.  Favorite recent album though would be Mumford & Sons' "Sigh No More".  I know I mentioned this album before, and a song from it ("I Gave You All", in case you've forgotten), so I'll go with a different song off it.  "Awake My Soul" is another fantastic track on this fantastic album, and if you still haven't checked it out, what are you waiting for?!

Song Challenge Day 18: A Song That I Wish I Heard on the Radio

Yesterday I pointed out that I don't listen to the radio much, so I guess almost every song I like I could say I wish I heard on the radio, but it's not the radio station or DJs fault that I don't listen that much.  Being in LA, my radio is usually tuned to KROQ, but in the event they play something from Kings of Leon or such, I also have a preset for Star 98.7.  I find these two stations to be playing more and more of the same songs, with only a bit more pop on Star, although it seems like rock and pop are merging into one another, and I'm not pleased with this.

I honestly don't know what one song I wish I heard on the radio.  One of the things I like about radio is not knowing what's coming next.  In iTunes, I pretty much just use iTunes DJ, so I can see, and change, what's coming up.  Usually I don't modify it, unless there's a specific song I want to hear next, and prefer to just skip songs that I don't want to hear as they play.  But with the radio, I don't have that option.

Okay, enough stalling.  The song I wish I heard on the radio is Flogging Molly's "The Worst Day Since Yesterday."  Love. That. Song.  Also I love the band.  Come on December 11!

Song Challenge Day 17: A Song That I Often Hear on the Radio

A few months ago while moving our office from 5 miles away from my house to 1 mile away from my house, I sat on my iPod Touch and cracked the screen.  It still worked, until I tried to replace the screen.  Oops.  Before I broke it though, I used it in my car all the time.  It was my music source, no matter how short or long my trip was.

Now, I listen predominantly to the radio for the short trips, and almost daily (I usually only drive two miles total...) I hear Linkin Park's new single, "The Catalyst".  Now, I would say I'm a Linkin Park fan, and I like that they're a band that grows as they age, but I'm not sure how I feel about this song.  I don't hate it, but I don't love it either.  Their new album, "A Thousand Suns" comes out a week from today, and I guess we'll have to see what happens then.  Looking at reviews, tweets, and the like, it's not looking good...

Song Challenge Day 16: A Song I Used to Love But Now Hate

Back in the third season of American Idol, a certain err, differently-talented contestant shocked the nation with his, err, inability.  I found it amazing in a great-to-torment-your-friends kind of way, so I picked up his early pre-release tracks on iTunes.  That's right, I'm talking about William Hung.  The song I love to hate most?  "Free".  I'm rather glad to be free of my strange interest in his music.  Oh, but busting out his music in the middle of a meeting was always amazing (to me of course, not to anyone else, haha).

Song Challenge Day 15: A Song That Describes Me

It wasn't until the late 90s and I had moved into high school that I started listening to music that wasn't Oldies, and wasn't religious.  I think the local oldies station at the time changing its format to rock overnight helped with that, as I no longer had the source for the Oldies.  My best friend and I were pissed at the time, but I'm sure he's as grateful as I am now for the changeover.

One of the bands I really got into at that time was Collective Soul.  I still love their music, but one song of theirs works well as a song that describes me, at least at this stage.  "Run", hits home on a few fronts.  

"I've never been this bored before / Is this the prize I've waited for"

Growing up, I couldn't wait to be out of school, have a M-F 9-5 job, and live the life of an adult.  If I knew then how mundane such a life is, I think I would have changed my plans somehow.

3 years ago I felt this way at my old job.  Same situation of just being bored with what I was doing.  So I found a new job with new challenges.  I ran to something new.  Now I feel I want to repeat the cycle.

"Is there a cure among us / from this processed sanity"

No matter what I do, I fear I'm going to feel this same sense of boredom in life.  I've had different schedules in the past, but it hasn't alleviated the boredom.  I've worked two jobs and not had a day off in months, but it hasn't alleviated the feeling.  I suspect having a significant other in my life would help, as even if we were bored, we'd be bored together, and somehow that's okay.  I love the time I spend with my close friends, even if we're just sitting and talking, or sitting and not talking.  But I also feel that I need to be able to resolve this boredom on my own, without relying on someone else to be the fix.

"Have I got a long way to run"

As for work, I fear the cycle.  I think my desire to produce television is for the constant change, the new challenges that would present themselves on a regular basis.  But, I have to get into that that aspect.  I have to take the steps that turn into a walk, then into a jog, and then into that full run.  The distance is daunting, but it's not getting any closer without taking that first step...

Song Challenge Day 14: A Song No One Would Expect Me to Love

I have to say, I don't think anyone would expect me to love a lot of the songs I do, but I'm pretty sure no one knows I like a few country songs.  So I gotta go with "Ten Rounds" by Tracy Byrd.  Why do I love it?  I don't know, I just do!  Maybe because it's a story of being drunk, and we all love those!

What I DON'T love is tequila, so that makes this song even MORE unexpected...

Song Challenge Day 13: A Song That Is a Guilty Pleasure

Looking ahead at the list of days/songs, I'm growing tired of this challenge.  BUT, I will persevere.

A guilty pleasure.  Alright, well, I have no idea why I like this song, as I can't say I'm a huge Scissor Sisters fan, but "I Don't Feel Like Dancin'" fits the bill of guilty pleasure.  I think I like the fact that's very much a song that's meant for dancing in the clubs and whatnot, and yet, it's about not wanting to dance.  I also really like the laser beam sounds in the chorus.

So there you have it.  For the record, I rarely feel like dancing, but I do enjoy swinging my head to the beat.

Song Challenge Day 12: A Song From a Band I Hate

9/2/10 - 11:03PM: It's the day after I posted this, but I have to amend it.


N'Sync - Bye Bye Bye.

U2: You name it, I hate it, but let's go with "Beautiful Day".  It's not the music I hate, but rather Bono, because he's a giant douche bag, and according to South Park, the biggest shit ever.

Hatred.